Saturday, September 18, 2010

hey girls,

its been really long since we used this and i just needed somewhere to rant.

this week's been really horrible for me. and i hate it when people ask me whats wrong because it digs up all my memories and anger and worries and woes and that makes me really nauseous. like disgustingly sick and tired of everything. and people around me in general. maybe, it's the bottling up of anger that is causing a build up of verbal diarrhea which expresses itself in the form of nausea.

if anything, i am disgusted with how i suck it up in front of people who dont deserve my kindness and releasing all my anger at my loved ones. my behaviour is repulsive.

and then, the strange thing was, everywhere i went today in school, hoping i could just be alone and cry my lungs out, there'd be someone there that'll just make me forget everything. and for once in a very long while, i think maybe i felt God's presence again.

the mysteries of faith, something i keep on losing.

like my phone. haha..


*-doublechocolatefudgecheesecake-* was ranting and raving at 12:18 AM

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