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Saturday, July 23, 2005

why m i blogging twice on the same day?had flag day today again anw.haha.but that's out of point.aft reading cm's post, i feel vvvv sad and i feel like crying.why on earth did i hate band so much?why dint i work hard earlier so i wont regret so much?
my bassoon: why did i not take better care of my my dearest jeremy??wat cm said abt patrick is same as how i feel for jeremy.and like.jeremy 'grew up' in band with me.his first owner, my first instru.the first bassoon of nycb!i seasoned him.(cos yixi dint play much the first yr on him anw hehe)and i polished him.and i brought him home.and i learnt everything i noe abt music with him.almost everything anw.now he's not mine but someone else's.YOU better take care of him.he's been scratched alr so many times.sigh.i hate the fact that i dont have my instrument anymore.like it's been stolen from me.i cant really use jeremy anymore.why is it always me who has to give in.sigh.
and i will miss those times.i alr said all in the letter to cm and yixi.but it's like.the sectionals at our special place outside math dept tgt.going lunches tgt when we wld feel extra and sectionless.and yixi.having sectionals w sungongjun=).not being able to tune our Bb.the times we got pointed out by ms chong or mr lee and wld freak out.the concerts.foa.syf.crying for the first time in my life for sth like that.cos i'm usually so detached.and i nvr did cry for any passing downs or concerts or even the grooviest band thing or the 2003 GOLD.but i cried for syf and nearly cried ytdy.there were only tears but i was v sad.i dunno why i kept taking for granted that i'll go to band every tue thur fri.since dunno how long.last time was sort of tue fri sat.but still.having my very own instru.now no longer mine.no more of my attendance.no more being scolded for slouching, not tucking in shirt, not putting shoes perpendicular to the wall.not having my very own unique section=)i cant believe i just took all these for granted.and in half a yr's time.i really cant go back ANYMORE.and if i dun go hc, i wont see all my batch mates and the sec threes anymore.all these memories.i'll nvr forget them.getting scolded by uncle jack, staying back aft practice to continue practising,even the illegal things we did.complaining abt sectionals cos i used to think they were useless cos me and yixi just had lots of individuals cos we'll quarrel.sorry i was such a stupid sl.and lousy.i mean, i cant even handle a section with only ONE person lar.
to my batch mates:i love all of you!!the times we sat tgt in sec one.in one big circle.the time we moved up to putting our bags on the benches cos we were finally seniors and had the right to do so.the times where they marked attendance at 845 on saturdays but by 830, almost everyone was there.the times where weird political stuff btwn brasses and wws went on but i feel so happy that it's ovr.the times we went for batch lunches.oh and yek the bird=).the syf 03.23 july.the GOLD.how we played fate of the gods so often and so well almost everyone in sch knew the melody and wld sing it out.the sad passing down.the funny dance we did for the j2 batch.the video we did for the j1 batch.haha.the passing down to us.the GROOVIEST BAND in the gardens thing.wearing our wonderful band u.i dun care wdv pple say it looks like.i LOVE IT.too bad cant steal it=(.we rock!we are the best batch.of course i'm biased.but we werent so pampered.and we werent so tortured.and we were just nice.and united.this yr's syf.though we dint get wat we wanted, but we still are GOLD.we grew so much more united and bonded.even our morning crying tgt.and our bond only became stronger.we were the leading batch to syf.i'll miss all of you.dun think you all will read this though but i just needed to say this.tmr batch lunch.hope i can go=)
we'll still go back for band.but it'll be diff.shant make myself more sad.i feel stupid blogging twice in the same day=( this is very disorganized ooops.

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to be PRO
go to the same jc and uni?
to go overseas together
quadruple dating;)
marry on the same day
stay in the same condo
be godparents of each others kids
go for lots of holidays with our families together and tour arnd this spinning worlddd
bestest frens forever=)
hope all the above comes trueeee

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