Tuesday, May 31, 2005
I don't understand why my playing is so lousy. It's getting worse and WORSE I think I should stop crying over it and DO SOMETHING RIGHT NOW. Maybe people can't see it but I'm already trying very hard!!! I just don't know why I'm so scared or why it doesn't feel right to be playing right there and then. I feel so bad when people are so patient with me and all I do is screw things up and let everyone down. I just want to dig a hole and bury my head in the sand forever.
I don't want this to be over because I'll miss it all. The worst thing is that I'm so stressed I'm not even enjoying myself right now when I know I should be. Why am I so stupid.
I miss that person but I don't like it that the people I like always turn out as disappointments. When this week ends I will probably be distraught or something but right now whenever I see him all I want to do is slap him. I must be mental.
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Monday, May 30, 2005
my cl Os r over!!!great!!hmm yasi just left my house.she came to bake cookies and stuff.for her class.which is not my class hmm.anw they're rly yummy and i think i shldnt haf eaten so much cos now my throat hurts again...sigh.hmmm.trying to apply for DSA to HC..really really hope i can get in.if not DSA then thru Os lor..cos prelims too hard le.cant wait for tmr!!!hope my playing didnt deteriorate that much and sungongjun doesnt get pissed with me.dreading cl lesson tmr cos helaoshi surely scold us one.but the paper sucked lar though yasi keeps saying how easy it is.argh.sigh.and yasi also made me feel jealous today cos she kept toking abt how SUPER fun ytdy was WITHOUT me=(.ohwells.nvm.kk gtg bathe le.hope we haf fun tmr too!!!great.
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Sunday, May 29, 2005
ahah....i so long never blogged le..hee...did u all miss me???anyway..i m still in love with him..and he shall be called ice-cream...jac told me that he's in charge of a brass quintet...haha..like so cool..hee...haha..ok..today was nice..hee..alan was super funny..hee...but apple strudel was being flirtatious..dunno why cm is so in love with him..sigh..oh yes..we went for dinner and i ate nice stuff...but my fish kinda flew..haha...and it hit jac's pants..hee..opps sorry jac..okok..then erm..we toked to gazalee...is that how u spell?hee..then erm..we walked the far way out..and ice-cream said bye and waved at me..hee...and then erm...ahh..ice-cream is so cute..but wait..i shall not brainwash cm tt ice-cream else she will like him too..okok..then eh..they saw rat and i screamed and ran away..then erm...we sorta walked back again..to buy milk..and we sat under a block and tok..haha..from north to south and east to west..haha..dunno wad i m toking about..oh then the whole group came..and we were shocked to see someone holding hands...yes we were really shocked..my goodness...this is so scary frreaky..wadeva u name it..ahh..i cant believe my eyes...hee..kk..i gotta sleep le..must go to school tmr..how sad..byebye!
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Saturday, May 28, 2005
heyyy! long time since i blogggedd..HOLS ARE FINALLY HERE! ive been piaing like crazy for my portfolios cos i knew it only ermm haha a few days b4..now RU SHI ZHONG FU! YES!=Dstanley is so pro, so suave, so cute, i wanted to get his autograph but nvm=) yay saf! dear elissa is sick=( she was feeling giddy de whole day? hi elissa, how are you now? haha i realised dat while we were studying together her chinese improved cos she knew more words now and her reaction time was MUCH FASTER! so jia you elissa! just pia 2 more days!A1! dun be stressed kay elissa..take deep breaths and think of MY PRO CHINESE=D hehe jkjk haha i shall make sure i speak non-ang mohish chinesE! i bet dat idiot just doesnt know what piao zun chinese sounds like and THUS, dat idiot thinks dat yasi speaks standard chinese and i speak ang mohish chinese -___-oh yes!! i met my shifu and dat eric with his gf(?) dunno.. haha my shifu remembers me='(, tho i think he forgot my name haha but he rmbed me!!!!! yay! i bet my shifu is super super super super super super super super super super pro now=D and ermm as pro as stanley!sigh i feel quite scared about --- cos no one's going...sighh..
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Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Can we call him something else ah. Apple strudel just sounds gay -_- Btw Elissa I am not a pervert!!!!! And I missed you ok. Pls be flattered. Anyway I still can't believe my mom embarrassed me like that ARRRGH!!My sister brought her horn home and I played on it just now! Quite interesting la but it's super old and rusty and stinky. Haha anyway I think my tone is better than hers! So egoistic right.Aiya I realised that MY HIGH NOTES SOUND DAMN SUCKY. So rubbish la. Ok I really must practise.
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Tuesday, May 24, 2005
you all are out right now.having fun.and i'm studying.actually not studying.trying to do stupid homewk.got cme xuexidangan.and got el letterwriting.and i feel lyk being violent and tearing everything up!!its so stupid!!here i m trying to study chinese.and the tchrs haf to give me stupid letters to write.not that i hate writing letters(cos i just wrote one to cm hehe) but i feel too stressed abt cl to think in english hehe.hmmm.where is the super-pro-in-english cm??i need you!!but right now you're most likely perving at apple strudel.hehe that sounds wrong.but cm gets it rite?hehe.ok i shall bring my english letter tmr and ask you how to write it.i give up le.and i shall do the cme one tmr in sch too and ask yasi hehe.yays!!settled.now i can concentrate on cl.boohoo.today band was fun!!sungongjun is nice!!!i shant elaborate cos i lazy..alrdy told cm everything in letter hehe.ms chong is lame.and funny.oh and magic flute is nice!!though it sucks sitting nxt to jacklyn cos i haf this urge to use jeremy to hit her head.cos i hate the fact that she's so pro.and mean to me!!!stupid jac!!hehe better go le.sigh.hope you all r having fun now.thx for all the luck for chinese.i'll try not to disappoint you all!yes.bye bye!oh and my junior rocks cos she gave me a prez for my birthday!!hehe.
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Monday, May 23, 2005
hmmm.i feel very slack cos i sld be studying!!but i very sleepy leh how.this shall wake me up.haha.yasi's jigsaw puzzle is half done.thx to jac and cm.and hehe mayb me cos i helped her sort the pieces last thurs.today all i did was sit there and try to study chinese.and make yasi exasperated cos she gave up teaching me.hehe.aiya i just cant do chinese.why m i in ny?i dunno.hmmm.i think i should be more stressed.my Os is in less than a week's time.rocks.i wanna go band tmr!!!but i should study.and then you all can go dinner and stuff without me=(sigh.oh and today cm finally got her wish of eating beehoon.though she spent more time feeling sad and complaining abt something.shant say anymore.hehe dun feel sad cos its just a passing thing lar.lyk last time you lyk fishball now dun lyk le.hehe.oh no mayb i'm making it worse.oops sorry cm!hehe.oh and stupid jac!!!i not so stupid lor!!!i know how to write a lot a lot of words lor!!!just that you tested all the hard ones haha.ok i feel awake again.yays!cant wait for cl Os to be over and 5th of june and slpovr to come!!fun!!great.byes!
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heyhey! im at yasi's house too..the goldmine cheesecake is greatt=P im gonna grow super super fat and my husband wont be able to carry me to our condo on our wedding day=( hehe..
anyway, sorry elissa=) hope you still love us cos we still love you.
hehe was taking elissa ting xie just now, now yasi's taking her. very slacky leh, every term we give she'll be like huh wats "term" ARGH. haha. we are gonna watch blast sooon! cos iskandar lent it hehe=) exciting.
elissa just wrote "nue dai" and she was like "i am so smart" LOOK AT MY FACE -> -___- hehe jkjk=) good luck for Os elissa! we are behind youuuuuuuuu
cm's taste is super weird larh she was looking at this mag and said "this guy is so hot" and i turned to expect a suave, muscular guy, and saw this lao ah pek -___- haha okay! i shall go slack arnd and bounce on yasi's beddd. cya!
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Hi all the cheesecake was yummy! thanks yasi!!!
ELISSA PLS STUDY YOUR CHINESE PROPERLY AND STOP TALKING. Haha btw sorry about that night but I know you don't mind alr la.
I still like !!!!! :)
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Sunday, May 22, 2005
hello people..feeling really excited about tmr..haha...i got big beeg surprise for u all for breakfast..haha...u guys sure like it..haha..anyway..elissa sorry about yest..really..hee...dun be piss and dun be stressed...hee..u not going where ah?not tmr right?anyway..haha..i m watching princess diaries 2 now..so totally in love with it.. i remember the time when we went to watch it together..haha..so nice..hee..very fun right...when can we go watch movie again??i watched amityville today..haha..super nice..hee...we must go catch a nc16 show before jac turns 16..haha..exciting..and i m super duper excited about o levels..hee...sleepovers!!!hee..and concert..hahaha...kk..cya guys tmr...!!exciting:)i must change the skin!!!haha
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sorry if i was being overly sensitive or sth.i just felt very um..i dunno.pissed?but its ok lar i guess u tot it was a funny joke or sth.though i dint think it was.nvm.not really pissed anymore.yup just to tell you.sorry for making you all go home so late.i'm not gg this wk cos my mum doesn allow me to go out the whole wk.yup.though i really wanna go SAF concert sigh.hmmm.sorry k??though i still think i now haf no face but i guess last night i just felt very stressed abt lyk everything.church and Os and results and playing and stupid tones and everything.so everything just sort of came out at one time.k.i better go le.just had a nap that wasnt supposed to be that long.bye.
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Saturday, May 21, 2005
HIHIHI! vincent goh REMEMBERS meee='( im so touched..actually i think he just pretended to say he rmbed me when he only rmbed yumin -____- sad case..
hahaha de snoring thing was real funny..got a lot of huge flute parts lorh, esp de first song and last song(only got 3 songs thruout concert-__-) hehe so got a lot of flute parts!! SEE LARH YASI..NVR GO..de flautist quite pro=) jin ta i think...MA YUE WAS SO SO SO SO SO PRO, HIS TONE IS GREAT GREAT GREAT GREAT GREAT GREAT! hehe I RMBED GIVING ELISSA EVIL LOOKS TOO=D oh yarh thanks yasi for letting me carry your flute 2ice, i feel so PRO carrying 2 diff instrus MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
hehe i still cant tell de diff btw rachel walker and de other guy...altho cm said diff..DIFF MEH? sounds de same=D hehe...
HILARY HAHN IS SO DARN PRETTY and ELEGANT=) im so jealous..haha..
btw..quite fun guessing who is who=P hehe i very happy! cos today's saturday and it's 10:26a.m. now and today's a lovely day! RITE CM???=D
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HELLOHELLOHELLO everyone I love our blog name:) You know what after yesterday's SSO concert I realised that I can sleep with my eyes open! (but someone was more sleepy than me haha) Then Monkey looked bored to death throughout the whole concert. I was so amused. I wish SSO featured the wind instruments more because I think it's more exciting than string music (which makes me very sleepy). Anyway I decided I shall ask Mel to go for concerts with us in future so she can listen to pro oboists and be inspired and have section bonding with Xiao Hui also (how to spell her name). Haha ya like that la.
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hmmm i failed my geog.boohoo.but nvm.i did well for a math hehe.hmmm ytdy i went to the lib to study cl with vivian.hehe think now she really thinks my cl sucks.anw..i went to band at abt 445..and sat nxt to stephanie.and everyone kept asking me why i not playing and giving me evil loooks hehe.but i tired wat!!i mean almost all the mainstream pple didnt come, and somemore i got cl Os so really excused wat.oh!my instuructor very cute haha.but cm doesnt think so.we decided tt for the nxt concert we asking our juniors to come along and sit nxt to us hehe.after the interval me and cm moved to the back to sit with monica..and she got a clearer view of um..fishball!hehe.someone fell asleep during the concert and then when they finished a piece..we heard little snores hehehahaha.so funny.eh yasi you very mafan leh!!!i had to carry your times mag, your big fat file, and your insru!!!add on top of that jeremy and i almost died walking.hmmm.but its ok since last time u carried jeremy for me hehe.ok i gtg eat hehe.great.yays your com is repaired.bye!
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Friday, May 20, 2005
hello!!!i m back online again!!!exciting..haha..so sad..all of u are going to sso concert and i m not...how's band today?haha..and i love double chocolate fudge cheesecake too..haha...give u all a surprise on monday..haha..i love surprises..hee...anyway...eh..how are we going to find out who entered which entry ah?haha...this is so fun..i shall go find new clogskins tonight after church to decorate our blog!!!exciting!!!hee:)ciaoz...
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Thursday, May 19, 2005
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hello.i like the cake too!thx!!and um i think i'll wear my prez on sat or mon to show you all hehe.band prac was quite boring.so i sort of used the time to ask yixi how to zao ju a lot of words hehe.yays.gtg study le.bye!!
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Wednesday, May 18, 2005
i love double chocolate fudge cheesecake-!
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